Bjheebus - Is is Winter or Summer?

I HATE the winter, I hate it with every ounce of my being with it's snow, cold rain, short days, lack of sunshine, and dead foliage, I often contemplate if the summer will return so I can complain about the heat. So while nothing monumental has been going on, lots has been going on. For one thing we have decided to outsource a number of chores around the Casa de la Airhart and that makes me happy. I don't have to clean and the baby daddy doesn't have to cut grass. While I know you are all thinking we are lazy assholes, I assure that you are correct. We are lazy assholes on the weekends and since this is the only time we have to do these chores I decided the Cleaning Authority was a better option. Plus, who wants do to chores with I have the nugget to play with, especially since this crazy ass weather is making my spring fever itch like monkey butt.

Even though I loathe the winter, I was especially anxious this year because I had a new baby who I was sure would be sick at some point and I had a little glimpse of that in September after her 4 month shots.......

I was not looking forward to a winter wonderland of snot and crying, but alas I braced for the worst and hoped for the best and I have to admit we were lucky, very lucky. I attribute it to breastfeeding I have been squeezing those things dry 3-4 times a day for almost 10 months and I really think that is what saved us. Who knows what in it but if I were smart I would pump forever and sell the stuff, but I'm selfish and I really want to wear a regular bra again already, one with under wire and one without easy access flaps so I'm seriously contemplating a cease fire for my battle with breastfeeding. I have been battling inside myself contemplating this decision for the past few weeks while I have been doing nothing but pumping (since Sadie M got a tooth and started treating me like a chew toy) and I have to tell you it has not been awesome, I barely get 10 ounces a day now and even with the supplementing I'm doing I'm not replacing what I'm using. I'm going to try to finish out the month of March and then start weening completely. Sadie Marie loves her solids so much anyway she barely even pays attention to her bottle so I'm going to stop beating myself up over and move on. Ten months is as good as 12. Whew for some reason I feel so much better now that the decision has been made. Thanks Juju for talking it through with me!

I can feel the summer coming and I'm getting excited for all the things that means. First, Sadie Marie will turn one on May 24, 2012 and as a professional event planner I already have half the party planned, moonbounce booked, outfits ordered, and an invitation to the loony bin from the baby daddy. He thinks I'm insane but really Airhart!?! You only turn one once and let's get real this party is as much for me as it is for her! He continues to remind me she won't remember it but he does not know he's getting a daddy cam and can video the entire event so we can relive it on her 16th birthday. Ah the memories........

Second, I'm going the homeland for a nice long visit and a trip to the beach over the July 4, so that also means I will be there for my birthday! We gonna be at the beach and now that I have adamantly decided to stop breastfeeding I am going to really start working on my beach body which means I will really have to start running again. I hate getting back in shape, but I will LOVE myself once I'm there. Baby steps.

Third, the baby daddy has decided he wants to go to a NASCAR race this year in Richmond so I'm saving it for the September race. I'm so pumped, I never thought that sweet boy from Iowa would want to go drink beer and hang out with rednecks as much as he does but I love him for it. Richmond here we come!

So as you can see, we have a jammed packed summer ahead of us and I can't wait for all the travel. I'm so ready to take Sadie Marie to many of the places I have already been and to many of the new places we plan to go. Some folks don't like traveling with little ones but I look at it as an adventure. You can't stop your life because you have a baby and why should you, they want to live too! I also have to get stories for my blog somewhere and what better place than an 12 hour road trip to Alabama with a one year old, the baby daddy, and two dogs in tow?

Switching gears a bit......

So Sadie Marie got her first real "ouch" today at daycare. She's got a black eye, well not really but she has a mark and it's swollen......I walked in and she was like, "but mom you should have been the other guy,"

The evil toddler chair. That's right, my little nugget got beat up by a chair! Susan said she didn't cry which I believe because she's tough, but I still felt bad for her, it was swollen and everything! What can you do, she gets fantastic care at daycare so as the French would says, kids will be kids and that means getting their hands dirty.....or in this case black eye by toddler chair.

My mom was here over the past weekend and since my Grandmother turns 84 on March 19 so we had a little birthday party at Juju's house on Saturday and Cunnie decided it was time to intro Sadie Marie to CAKE.....and ICE CREAM. Did I mention their was frosting involved? She looked exactly like a kid with cake.......eyes glazed over as they basked in the beauty of frosting and cake batter ice cream.....and of course a chocolate frosting mustache.



While the past weeks have been pretty calm it has given me the opportunity to reflect on our lives over the past year and even though I'm still waiting on my breastfeeding girl scout badge I'm pretty proud of where we are. I returned to my job 7 months ago and I'm finally not feeling like a retard most days. it's take efficiency and excessive organization to do what I do and the difference is now I really have to WORK at my work. I thought I used to make lists to remember things, I had no idea what it meant to be organized before. I have a list for EVERYTHING. If I don't write it down the minute I think it, you can forget about it. This thing they call mommy brain is something different for me, my brain didn't get stupid.....it was awakened with Sadie Marie's birth and I just added something so much more important than work to my life that my brain just subconsciously chooses to focus on that more than work. I now have to work to be good at my work, which is something I'm not used to. I used to go in and BOOM, I could do my job with my eyes closed and I did it well. I feel like I'm getting back to that place.....SLOWLY......but in the meantime it has given me a HUGE appreciation for working mom, especially some of the ladies I work with who have more employees that I do and who have some serious stress that comes with their positions. In the same turn I'm glad I'm not them. I know my  team will grow over the years but hopefully by that time I will have a handle on this mom thing too and I can grow as a mom and as a manager.

Today we had another first, Sadie Marie is finally tall enough to walk in the walker and she LOVES it. Below is a video of her maiden voyage. (Well I couldn't get the video to load, but its on Facebook you can view it there!)

Sadie Marie's turned nine months old as well! Below are her pictures.

Clearly annoyed I dressed her up in yet another tutu.....save it Sadie M, tutus are a part of your life until your at least 10 years old.

This was last night while I was getting her supper ready. The baby daddy had gone to pick up our supper and unfortunately I don't have 4 arms so the poor child had to be put down for 5 minutes. I can already see where this is going. Poor mom and dad.

Y'all be good,

April